When I began working for my employer, nearly ten years ago, I absolutely loved my job. I loved the people I worked with, the environment, the mission of the company and the technologies I developed. For the first few years I came to work excited, I worked long hours and I was proud of the work I accomplished.
Of course, as is often the case, as the years wore on my feelings began to change. After years of working under the same management and bureaucracy I began to feel annoyed, bored and stifled. Around the five year mark I polished my resume and engaged in a couple of interviews.
I was eager to look elsewhere, but I quickly found that each job sounded exactly the same as my current one. Each position seemed to entail the same amount of bureaucracy, outdated technologies, slow systems and even slower people. Not only that, but with a new job I’d be starting over from scratch, I’d have less vacation and less benefits.
Although I was offered other positions I ultimately decided not to quit. In fact, I went back to my job with a renewed sense of excitement. I felt re-energized in my work. I might face the same problems day-in and day-out, but at least I was doing so while building a pension, contributing to my 401(k), and accumulating extra days off.
Of course, as time wore on my feelings soured again. Around the 7 year mark I considered leaving again, but then significant medical problems halted all of those thoughts. For awhile my medical issues trumped everything else, and whether I liked my job or not, it paid the bills and allowed me to take time off to visit doctors and physical therapists. I trudged through my job, because in all due honesty I had very little choice in the matter, and very little motivation to do anything other than focus on getting well.
Now here I am, at the same company I started with nearly ten years ago. Over the last few years the company I loved has almost completely disappeared. The technology is dated, my favorite co-workers have abandoned ship, and most recently my commute has quite literally quadrupled.
I think it is now time to reconsider my career. How long can I continue to hang on to a company when I feel that I am attaining no personal or career growth? Yesterday after a long discussion with my husband I decided to begin looking for a new job. I know the market is not the best and I might not find exactly what I’m looking for, but thankfully I can remain at my current job until I find something more appealing.
It is with mixed emotions that I look forward. My current company has been amazingly good to me. They have provided me with wonderful opportunities and amazing benefits, but as the days go on I can’t help but feel that the ship is sinking beneath me. I know I might not find what I’m looking for, but I’ll never find anything if I don’t start looking.