I’m sorry you are dealing with health issues, but it sounds like you are making a wise decision to take care of yourself and your children. I can understand your desire to continue making a paycheck. It’s been nine years since I left the workforce and I still miss it, but sometimes we cannot get better until we step away from work so we can focus on our overall well being. I wish you the best of luck moving forward. I hope that you are able to find better ways to manage your health without work looming over your shoulder. I also hope that staying home will give you more strength and energy to deal with your ongoing health issues.

Thank you for leaving a comment. I’ll check out your blog.

Thank you for saying that. Sometimes I cut out the parts that are too difficult to read. I chopped out a few paragraphs from this post that I now wish I left in. Parts of the story are still too difficult to share.

Hi Lisa, Thank you for the comment. I am always saddened to read about others who suffer from chronic pain. As someone who has suffered for more than twenty years I know just how difficult and invisible that pain can be. I have never read the Medical Medium book, but I will check it out. Acupuncture and massage have helped alleviate my aches, but neither are covered by my insurance. In my case alternative medicine and treatments provided much more help than modern medicine ever did. It sounds like your experience may be the same.

I thought of you as I pushed publish on this post. I am sorry that you are suffering. As you said you can never know the alternative course in life. You can’t get too down about the choices you’ve made. We can’t foresee the future and sometimes I think we wouldn’t want to see even if we could. Who knows how you would change course if you knew exactly how it would go and how long you would get to live?

Thank you for your comment. I actually wrote a lot more about this and then deleted it. It felt a little too raw if you know what I mean. I hope your husband heals quickly.