A few months ago, I began working with a life coach. During one particularly engaging session, she asked me to write down the words I would use to describe myself.
My pen hit the paper, and I scribbled out the following:
- Seeker of Good Fortune
I looked at the list with a big wide grin. For the first time ever, I didn’t write down my former occupation. In the past, I would’ve included former software engineer among the other descriptions.
While the current list looks quaint and sweet, it wouldn’t have been enough for me in the past. Why? Because it doesn’t include any details about my money-making abilities.
Until the last year or so, I equated my self-worth with my former profession. I failed to value myself beyond the money I used to earn. Thankfully, now things are different.
Are you Aiming for Accomplishment or Success?
This fact became apparent in the next exercise. This time, the life coach asked me to create a vision for myself in the future. I wrote down the following words:
After I finished writing, we talked about the concepts on the page.
“What does it mean to be successful?” she asked, and my mind flashed straight to money.
“I don’t like the word,” I promptly said after making that realization. I crossed through it and highlighted the word accomplished instead.
The Definition of Success
Happiness, contentment, peace, and a feeling of accomplishment all rank above success. Yet, it’s that little word at the bottom of the list that continued to catch my eye.
Later that evening, I searched for definitions of the word and came across the following:
- The attainment of wealth.
- A person or thing that has had success, as measured by attainment of wealth.
Sure, there are other interpretations, but these are the ones that immediately jump off the page at me. Although the word means many things, my brain fixates on these ideas.
The Heavy Weight of Success
In my mind, the term success carries a certain weight with it—a heaviness associated with white picket fences, accolades, and large bank accounts.
For most of my teenage years, all of my twenties, and half of my thirties, I searched for the all-mighty dollar the way Indiana Jones searched for the Holy Grail.
My efforts paid off. By the age of thirty, my husband and I amassed over one million dollars worth of cash, properties, and investments.
By all financial accounts, we were successful. So nine years ago, I left my high-paying job to raise my son. The decision was difficult, but I reasoned we had plenty of money.
Plus, my husband would continue to earn a high income, so there wasn’t any need for me to pile extra cash on top of the pile that already existed.
The Definition of Accomplished
Why did I miss that paycheck? Because I was still holding on to a warped definition of success. I was still dreaming of attaining wealth even though I knew deep down that success is not about accumulating more of it.
When I scribbled down my goals for my life coach, I didn’t include success at the top of my list. Instead, happiness, contentment, peacefulness, and a general sense of accomplishment all took precedence.
In fact, I cast success aside and highlighted the word accomplished instead. The definition of “accomplished” means to “carry out or finish an action—to complete what you set out to do.”
In my mind, money has nothing to do with the definition, but I am still connecting the dots between the two.
The Connection Between Money and Success
After writing down the words that defined me and my future desires, I created a vision of my accomplished self. What would it mean to be accomplished? How would I picture myself after achieving my goals?
I sketched an image of my children, and I snuggled under a warm blanket in a cozy spot in our living room. In my picture, they are laughing while I write stories for them. Money isn’t a part of my image, and yet it is.
If I hadn’t saved money before they were born, I wouldn’t be in this spot to enjoy their company without the need to earn more. This fact isn’t lost on me.
While money is not my focus for the future, I could not achieve my other goals if I was still focused so intently on acquiring wealth.
I can kick my visions of success to the curb, but somewhere deep down, I still see the underlying financial theme running in the background. It’s easy to see why the waters are murky.
The Underlying Theme of Money
After striving so intently to increase my income it became easy to narrow my focus to only one aspect of my journey. When I quit my job, it wasn’t easy to part with the money-making aspect of it.
There are many reasons for this. For starters, my husband and I bonded as our money grew. At the beginning of our careers, I didn’t earn much, but over the years, my salary skyrocketed. As the numbers rose in our bank accounts, it felt like we were accomplishing great things together.
When I decided to quit my job, I felt guilty for walking away from a paycheck while my husband continued his standard 9-to-5 routine.
Sure, we’d reached financial independence, but we still had one expensive goal to accomplish. We wanted to build a waterfront beach home. It didn’t feel fair to send him off on that journey alone.
For years, I thought I brought value to my relationship by funneling money into our bank accounts. When I chose to stay-at-home, I wasn’t sure what I was bringing to the table.
I wrapped so much of my identity into my former career that I couldn’t see my value after I stopped working. It’s been a long journey to see past that narrow image of myself.
My Definition of Success
These days I see success in a completely different light. I wish to accomplish big goals without worrying or focusing on money.
But as crazy as it sounds, I don’t think I could’ve redefined success until I declared myself financially free. Believe me; I wish I could have.
Money is not the measurement of success, but I couldn’t see that fact until my bank accounts were full of it. I couldn’t recognize that fact without stockpiling it first.
My future vision doesn’t include swimming in a vault of gold coins like Scrooge McDuck. It’s not about wealth at all. Perhaps, it never should have been.
My definition of success is not about the number of zeros in my bank account. It’s about helping others, persevering through difficulties, loving others, and feeling loved.
It’s about being content, continually learning, and always putting in my best efforts. These are the real treasures life holds.